thinking

soo im sitting here thinking of alot of things ppl been telling me, showing me, teaching me and i am just too confused!

i dont get why/how someone else can have some much concern for another life, on top of theirs ... maybe bc i never really had a "positive person', or someone to have the patiences to show me correctly with out getting mad or fustrated w me or what i am doing... or maybe not knowing how to show me, not saying i dont have ppl that dont care for me or dont show me "right" but maybe its the way they are trying to show me. OR maybe its me i am very prideful person and dont know how to get over that, esp with certain ppl. i always had to learn things "the hard way", either thats how its suppose to be in my life or i make it that way...

i have alot of doubters from "friends" to fam saying i am going "no where" and fam telling me i am going to end just just like him (dont need to know who) but i dont get why you would tell some1 that and bring them negative energy esp when you dont even know "him"

i am a very keep to myself person for the simple reason i dont like getting the feedback w what i am doing or trying to do (right or wrong) idk but thats how i am and i am, too closed off to let someone into my life and try to teach me the things i should be doing when you been doing things Your Way! i always do get by but i know there coulda been an easier way i could went about things...

hmm idk where this was going but i always feel better when i get it out on something... basically saying i do take in what people are telling,showing,and teaching me.. but they always seem to give up after they have said their 2cents, i dont need anyones input in my life unless you plan on staying in it and to cont show,tell and teach me what it is i need to be doing (guidence) until i have accoplished it. but until then i will do what i know how to do and get by the way i kno how.


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