what men want...

Massaging. Touching. To get me off. To get off. Conversation. Banter. Flirtation. To be restrained. To be absolved of responsibility. To not make any decisions. To be allowed. To be denied. Schoolgirl outfits. Garter belts. Stockings. Teasing. More teasing. More teasing. Attention. Correction. Instruction. Assurance. To feel interesting. To feel knowledgeable. To feel attractive. To feel not too old. To be liked. Company before putting down a dog. Company after a grandfather died. Company during a business trip. For me to flinch. For me not to flinch. Distraction before a meeting. Relaxation after a meeting. To see me react. To make me react. My mouth. My hands. To have it happen the way he wants. For me to ignore the envelope. For me to smile before I get the money. For me to smile after. To believe I keep smiling even after I’m gone.